I need more friends in Australia.. I’m down to 1.
Getting drunk at 5:30pm coz you have no life and no friends… WOOHOO, CRAZY PARTY OF ONE!
In a place I never thought i’d reach again… I wish life was easier some times.
Forever never apart of something special & unique. Forever just “Shan”. That girl that people know & kinda like sometimes.
I came home yesterday (home being Mandy’s place) & it was cute how happy Mandy & her Grandparents were to see me after being gone for only a week ^_^ I’m going to miss them & everyone else so much when I leave D: Only one month left!!!
Reason #8746726 why I could never be in a relationship; I get far too attached to people & only hurt MYSELF when things go wrong… Or at least, when I THINK things have gone wrong.
Literally sitting here sobbing because i’m so lucky. I’ve never had such wonderful people around me!
As much as I’m the happiest I’ve ever been, I still hate myself. I still feel stupid, I still feel like I’m not good enough. Whenever someone shows the slightest bit of annoyance at me, inside I’m freaking out that “oh, god. Is this the beginning of the end?” “are they starting to regret becoming friends with me, like everyone else?” .. And as much as I can be myself here, I still have to stop myself from being completely me because I don’t think anyone can handle that much Shan, ever. Not even I can handle it…
Sometimes, I really really wish I wasn’t me. I hate me so much sometimes.